雨

雨。。。 有点喜欢雨
只因它会让我感到凉凉的
不会让我一点烦
其实是很矛盾的
对它是又爱又很。。。 真叫我有一点头痛。。。
哈哈哈
只要是在适当的时候下着雨，
那时多美的事
可是要是雨太多， 也不是一件好事。。。
真叫我好烦啊！

记得

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得
当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道
会不会有遗憾

谁还记得是谁先说
永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得
当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得是谁先说
永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得
当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

Missing YOU

以后都不要再联络听你说的很简单
黑暗中静静搂紧自己孤单有谁明白
难过懒的再去管泪要不要流下来
我也只好默默啃蚀寂寞留著痛灌溉
missing you 抛去爱渐渐模糊的期待
难道我就这样痛撤心扉是自己活该
missing you 我无奈难道是为了彼此伤害
好成为扮演愉快的天才
看照片散落在一床我在回忆中哭喊
若是自导自演的闹剧为何美好曾拥怀
就当作分手是因为我们在爱中看开
如果留不住我就只有孤独来陪伴
missing you 我坦白突然背叛的未来
那个时间转角你就不再留意我存在
missing you every night 连星海也嘲笑我活该
我还有什么资格放不开
陌生的人海去哪里找爱
只有看不清等待
谁愿收留我的期待快来

我的幻想世界

幻想过什么？

我幻想过自己是一个100%的日本人。
我也幻想过自己是一个100%的台湾人。
不是因为我讨厌自己是新加坡人，只是我比较羡慕他们的生活。

他们生活应该比我们新加坡人来得精彩。
何况他们的国家也比新加坡大好几百倍！
他们大胆的穿着和打扮，都是我一直认同时一级棒的！！
所以，我真的很羡慕！

虽然他们在国内有发生天灾，他们也是在害怕中度过难关。
也因为新加坡没有这样，所以当我们遇到这种情况，我们就比较难做出
放映。
当然，我不会希望新加坡会发生任何的天灾。
所以，我管你们要说我做作还是想模仿，你们尽管去吧！

因为这才是我自己！做自己就好！
我下定决心从今起，请大家就把我当成半个台湾人吧！
拜托了！：）

我的爱，再见了！

“Love is something that hurts you the most?”

我想大概是这样吧。

听了一位大哥哥的advice,

放弃。

这是我最终的决定。
再也不要被他动摇。我绝对不可以用《爱》来说我对他的感觉。
因为长久的爱，让我真的很累。
时不时我真的想过，我是否还应该不应该继续的喜欢他。。？
还是应该放弃对他的喜欢。。？

放心吧！

我会坚强起来的。

放弃。

是最好不过的方法了。我已经累了。
不想永远在原地踏步。
只有这样，我才可以往前走。
我的爱，再见了！
It's time for an end, GOODBYE.

弱

我不知道..

或许是我太弱了..你的每一句话..

我似乎恨在乎..

我不想这样..但是....我不能控制..

我强忍，可是我做不到..



我真的很弱。
...我想你...

Murmurs from my heart

Spiteful words had eventually whispered to my ears and astoundingly, I managed to put up with this wounding criticism. After all, my instinct was accurate. YOU are the pretentious hypocrite who had been badmouthing me, probably contributing copiously to other malicious gossips. Be it intentional or not, I am wholly dismayed by you. Now, I loathe this distressing feel.

At the outset, I thought it was awful of me to have suspicious doubts about you. Ultimately, I reckoned I shouldn't have felt remorseful at all. No matter what, paper will never be able to wrap fire. Hence, kindly strip off that repulsive mask of yours.

:) Life is like a piece of mirror. I'll treat you the way you treated me. (:

A lesson learnt so as underwent a series of reflections, I found the real me. Instead of feigning and lying to anyone including myself, from this moment onwards, I am gonna be the genuine Ignatius whom I am fond of.

眼光

不管天有多黑，

星星還在夜裡閃亮；

不管夜有多長，

黎明早已在那頭盼望；

不管山有多高，

信心的歌把他踏在腳下；

不管路有多遠，

心中有愛仍然可以走到雲端。

誰能跨過艱難？誰能飛越沮喪？

誰能看見前面有夢可想？

上帝的心看見希望，

你的心裡要有光！

喔，你的心裡要有眼光！

人

人可以是非常无常的
所谓一种米养百种人
人可以是很容易明白的
也可以是非常难以捉摸的
有些人表面对你很好
暗地里对你有不明的盘算
唯有日久见人心
人不一定要是非常富有或是家财满贯
就重要是要对得起自己的良心
真诚也是必要的

12星座之最

12星座之最

最完美的组合：天秤+狮子、金牛+巨蟹、双子+水瓶

最帅的星座：水瓶最美的星座：天蝎　

最好看的星座：天秤、水瓶、双子

最可爱的星座：双鱼

最活泼的星座：白羊、水瓶、射手　

最花心的星座：双子、射手、水瓶


最稳重的星座：摩羯、金牛、天蝎　　

最浪漫的星座：双鱼、天秤、双子

最木讷的星座：摩羯、金牛　　　　

最博爱的星座：水瓶、天秤

最博学的星座：金牛、处女、狮子

最节俭的星座：摩羯、金牛

最爱洁的星座：处女、天秤、摩羯　　　

最霸道的星座：狮子　　最爱美的星座：天秤、双鱼、金牛　　

最幽默的星座：双子、天秤、白羊　　

最负责的星座：处女、摩羯、天蝎　　

最爱玩的星座：水瓶、白羊、射手　　

最大方的星座：狮子、水瓶、双子　　

最自大的星座：狮子、白羊、天蝎　　

最好色的星座：双鱼、天蝎、狮子　　

最富有的星座：摩羯、天秤、天蝎　　

最佳丈夫的星座：金牛最佳太太的星座：金牛
最佳父亲的星座：狮子
最佳情人的星座：双子
最佳褓母的星座：双鱼


最佳厨师的星座：金牛、天秤


最佳法官的星座：天秤　　


最有思想的星座：水瓶、白羊　　


最爱面子的星座：狮子　　

最会使坏的星座：水瓶、射手　　

最会理财的星座：金牛　　


最爱耍帅的星座：射手、白羊　　

最会摸鱼的星座：天秤、双子、射手　　

不修边幅的星座：白羊、射手　　


有仇必报的星座：天蝎　　


最佳运动员的星座：射手


最佳生意人的星座：摩羯


最佳推销员的星座：双子


最佳科学家的星座：水瓶


最佳清洁员的星座：处女　　


最不知变通的星座：金牛、摩羯、天蝎、处女　　


最爱做老大的星座：白羊、狮子


最爱乱买东西的星座：双鱼、双子


最爱乱发脾气的星座：射手、白羊

最爱取笑别人的星座：处女、白羊　　

最会见风转舵的星座：双子、天秤、水瓶　　

适合独自创业的星座：天蝎、水瓶、狮子
最适合作上班族的星座：金牛、摩羯、处女　　

最难从失恋中恢复的星座：摩羯、金牛、天蝎　　

最容易发生师生恋的星座：双鱼、摩羯　　

玩起来最CRAZY的星座：白羊、双子、射手


proudly present :p :


最专一的星座：金牛、天蝎、巨蟹
最鸡婆的星座：处女、巨蟹、射手
最懒惰的星座：天秤、金牛、巨蟹
最温柔的星座：巨蟹、双鱼
最爱吃的星座：金牛、天秤、巨蟹
最老实的星座：金牛、摩羯、巨蟹
最佳母亲的星座：巨蟹
最佳杀手的星座：巨蟹
最没主见的星座：巨蟹、双鱼
最爱贪小便宜的星座：射手、巨蟹

after all, it's just for fun. ^.*

我不想忘记你

吃醋是因为我爱你.生气是因为我在乎你。 发呆是因为我太想你。 流泪是因为我不想失去你。 我要我们永远在一起直到永远!!我爱你。

偏心或过于宠爱

偏心或过于宠爱?
这是通常会发生的事！
有时真的有一点不服气！
明明错的不是对的人却因不是被宠的人而被责备
尤其是明明是那个被宠怀的人的错
无缘无故被指责
为何是好呢？

my secret heart

I enjoy having friends who are of the same frequency as me.

These people are really far and few.

Engaging a conversation with them

is refreshing and different, always instantly

there's this another switch-on inside me.

Like conversing with people who are into arts and good music, and I mean

those really artsy-fartsy ones, not the usual typical action 'beh-dek'

wannabes who just wanna show the world how artistic they are, maybe to

be someone different or to gain more attention. hahaa senseless rambles

anyway.

Whatever it is,

I just hope true arts live...

and more inspiration to come.

this entry kinda reminds me of a friend's convo,

"yeah, there are alot of act-convent girls around these days..."

喜欢与爱的差别

喜欢，
是淡淡的爱。
爱，是深深的喜欢。
你看到你喜欢的人，
你会很开心。
但是当你看到你爱的人，
你的心跳,会突然加速。
你喜欢的人看着你的时候，
你会自然得露出微笑。
但是当你爱的人看着你，
你会手足无措，
你的脸会红，
你会害羞，
你会什么话都说不出来。

情

情是：-

它包括了很多的东西
亲情，友情，爱情。。。
人要是可以不用在乎这些的话，该有都有
常常会问自己，我要的是什莫？？？
常常在不知不觉而忽略了
好像不要去理会可是。。。 我可以吗？？
心情好比尤如有个人在提醒着。
当心已不再想的时候， 已经太晚了

生命中不可承受的轻

让耳机循环这旋律

反复超重低音震动着宁静

挡风玻璃里爱成了蒙太奇

我哼着我自己的叹息

只是爱与被爱的比例

不是爱或不爱的问题

如果明天还有好天气

都已经跟你没关系

你让我梦见了太美的梦

生命中不可承受的轻

你证明了每一颗流星

都遥不可及

你因为了我每个所以

所以了这一百年孤寂

你洒下默默无言的雨一滴

一滴一滴一滴滴遗忘的泪滴

偶阵雨偶尔会天晴

还好星光熠熠好心的提醒

一个人追寻一个人的和平

我看见我自己的天际

爱真的需要一点勇气

就看我们敢不敢忘记

我和彩虹最短的直径

也不一定没有你不行

你让我梦见了太美的梦

生命中不可承受的轻

你证明了每一颗流星

都遥不可及

你因为了我每个所以

所以了这一百年孤寂

你洒下默默无言的雨一滴

一滴一滴一滴滴遗忘的泪滴

就让我狠狠地加速前进

脱离你所给我的梦境

再零点零零一公里

就可以清醒

我决定不再等你决定

我决定不再当局者迷

我决定属于我自己的黎明

距离你一世纪下一个世纪

It's not easy to be happy.

It's not easy to be happy.


我的生活　是一團混亂

一個人來　又一個人往　怎麼讓他　流連忘返?

我不想當笨蛋 我在牆上寫滿渴望

我可以大哭一場　房間還是空空蕩蕩

我絕對不逞強　該屬於我任其自然


Everyone has someone to fall back on.

Where is mine?

人心难测!

Things were just so unpredictable. everything just totally changed in the very next seconds, next minutes. we can only blame ourselves for not preventing it to happen and we are not alert enough bah. and we takes things too lightly. now, whose words is true? whose words is faked? couldn't be bother about such things now. who is making up stories? who is speaking the truth? really hard to trust and believe. got to trust and believe myself only.

gibbering utterance

Reality is better, that's what we always tell ourselves.
That's what everyone 's telling everyone.
We convince ourselves that
it's better that we don't dream at all.
Do you really think that'll work?
The convincing thing.

I'll be convinced if it work you know.
But it's not really practical is it?

Wounds never heal,
The most we can hope for is that one day,
maybe just one day, we get lucky enough,
to forget.

We will, right?
I will right?
The forgetting and getting over it.
But i really don't want the forgetting,
maybe just getting over, you know move on,
that's what everyone's telling me to.
So i should right?
I mean, I'll have to, one day.
I know that.
Because when time pass,people will start to lose patient in me.
They'll leave me alone, someday, somehow.
Which i really don't want to think about.
And i don't want to be the pain in their neck.
But i really cannot do it alone,
can i?

Sleep, I should go to bed,
I need to sleep,
Human being sleep.
Enough of the crazy prattle rambling talk.


I'm talking to myself.
Great.

痛得要死。

The blue skies fade to grey,

a raining afternoon.

A melancholy thought.

I thought of the many many hours,

cosily tucked into bed,

snuggling next to you,

curled up comfortably in your embrace,

with thumping of the rain outside the window.

Hmmm, so beautiful, fond bittersweet memories.

Can i tell you the truth.

Can i tell you my heart ache like it's tearing apart.

痛得要死。

Can i tell you my eyes are going blind

with all the crying at night.

痛得要死。

Can i tell you i kept seeing you struggle in pain,

struggling to stay alive.

痛得要死。

Can i tell you i kept thinking about

the awful sight of you laying there,

even if i tried with all my might to chase away the thought.

痛得要死。

Can i tell you i do not want to be the strong guy

that everyone wants to see me become,

I'm so drained, so jaded, so exhausted.

痛得要死。

Can i tell you I'm tired of putting up a strong front.

To not cry in front of others.

痛得要死。

Can i tell you i want you back,

I'll share my life with you.

痛得要死。

I crumble,

I'm falling into pieces

I'm letting my vulnerabilities get the better of memomentarily.

真的痛得要死。

Joline & I went to Singapore Flyer and GV Gold Class

Joline is enjoying her Champange in singapore Flyer

Joline was 1/4 on the way up

Joline & I at Singapore Flyer at 165 meter above the ground

Joline gazing at the stars at 165m above grd level

Joline with the halloween "creatures" @ the flyer

Joline at GV Gold Class Lounge.

I was so happy that i can date her out on that day.I was treating her as sister cos she is like a small gal to me.

思念

思念是一种很玄的东西，如影随形。无时无刻地思念着你，默默地注视你黑暗的头像，期待它能突然地亮起来让我惊喜不已；无时无刻地思念着你，象个傻瓜一样翻看着我们的聊天纪录，回味你对我说过很多痴情款款的话语；无时无刻地思念着你，频频点击你的论坛资料，希望显示出你登陆过的痕迹，让我知道你很在乎我，你在论坛里默默地关注、陪伴着我；无时无刻地思念着你，静静地打开手机看你发给我的信息，心中泛起阵阵温暖的涟漪；无时无刻地思念着你，一遍遍地听我们喜爱的歌曲，每一首歌都有着我们共同的回忆，每一首歌都有着我们的各自感受，这些记忆的片断有着忧伤，也有着甜蜜；有着欢欣，也有着痛苦；却是如此地深深烙印在我心上，难以磨灭掉。

思念是一种很玄的东西，如影随形。对你的思念日夜不停歇。想念你的时候，你不在我的身边，心里溢满着浓浓的惆怅，失落感无时无刻侵蚀着我身体的每一个细胞，想挣脱重重伤感的包围，却无力抗拒；想念你的时候，你不在我的身边，心中莫名感觉很堵很塞，仿如有一块无形的大石头在压迫着，拼命地想搬开它重获轻松，却无能为力；想念你的时候，你不在我的身边，万千愁绪在心中游移流走，拼命地想把如丝的忧愁抽离身体，却欲抽更甚；想念你的时候，你不在我的身边，情感如火山爆发前的熔岩，在心中流动迸发着难以想象的炽热，想寻找一个喧泄的缺口，却无处可泄。

思念是一种很玄的东西，如影随形。光阴也许能改变一切，却改变不了我对你的思念。思念一个人的滋味是甜甜的，如芳香甘甜的蜜饯，沁口沁心；思念一个人的滋味是苦苦的，如青翠的苦瓜，苦中带着甘凉；思念一个人的滋味是酸酸的，如新鲜的扬梅，未及品尝味蕾已是酸透；思念一个人的味道是如此地难以用文字来述说，它甜中有苦，它苦中有酸，却有着我一次又一次，无怨无悔为你品尝。

思念是一种很玄的东西，如影随形。无论是风雨，无论是骄阳，无论是荆棘，无论是泥泞，也无法阻挡我对你的想念。我对你的思念如潇潇洒洒的秋风，缓缓清爽地吹拂，可否感受到它在抚慰着你疲乏的身体？我对你的思念如缠绵不断的雨丝，温柔细密地飘洒，可否感受到它在滋润着你的枯竭的心田？我对你的思念如寒冬的暖阳，和睦柔和地照射，可否感受到它在温暖着你冰冷的心灵？　　　　　　　　　

思念是一种很玄的东西，如影随形。一日不见如隔三秋，思念让人度日如年；思念让人衣带渐宽；思念让人形容憔悴；思念让人胡思乱想；思念让人牵肠挂肚；思念让人转辗难眠；思念让人茶饭不思；思念让人寸断肝肠；思念让人心潮澎湃。　
　　　　　 　　　　　　　　
思念是一种很玄的东西,如影随形.思念是如此的凄楚；思念是如此的惆怅；思念是如此的忧伤；思念是如此的寂寞；思念是如此的撩人；思念是如此的美丽；思念是如此的剪不断、理还乱。你说你是永远的守护神，要好好地照顾心爱的人，用心地疼爱她，绝对不离不弃，帮助她忘却以往的种种伤痛，鼓起她再爱的勇气，让她得到应有的幸福。用尽所有的思念朝着你的方向遥望，远方的你能否听到这深情的呼唤？那是一颗孤独无依的心灵在渴望你的温暖

思念是一种很玄的东西
如影~随形
无声又无息出没在心底
转眼~吞没我在寂默里
我无力抗拒 特别是夜里 喔~
想你到无法呼吸
恨不能立即 朝你狂奔去
大声的告诉你~
愿意为你 我愿意为你
我愿意为你 忘记我姓名
就算多一秒 停留在你怀里
失去世界也不可惜
我愿意为你 我愿意为你
我愿意为你 被放逐天际
只要你真心 拿爱与我回应
什么都愿意
什么都愿意 为你
我无力抗拒 特别是夜里 喔~
想你到无法呼吸
恨不能立即 朝你狂奔去
大声的告诉你~愿意为你
我愿意为你 我愿意为你
忘记我姓名就算多一秒 停留在你怀里
失去世界也不可惜
我愿意为你 我愿意为你
我愿意为你 被放逐天际
只要你真心 拿爱与我回应
什么都愿意
什么都愿意 为你
我什么都愿意什么都愿意 为你

人生是一场游戏.

呵呵! 我听有人说过,人生是一场游戏. 但是我反对这个说法. 昨天姐姐要我选走那一条路,结果,我错选了堵车的路.. .(好倒霉) 如果人生是一场游戏,也就是说,我刚刚选错了,还能回到 原来的路,不走堵车的路吗? 人生是可以像游戏一样从新开始的.这可能吗? 每个人只有一个生命.每个生命代表每个人的人生...…

Must be BRAVE

What is the most important of LIFE now is to get yourself up as normal or i should said that you had to be more brave & strong to overcome all this down tides of the things. When things are bad, a lot of negative people will tends to lead other people to follow them to be negative! As for me, thou I cant says that i m very brave & strong but i can says that I cant let this things to lead me to trip & falls... I must be more strong & brave so that i can reach to my goal... I want freedom to a lot things & this is not only for the short term..,, is on-going things...

As for me, I had to be brave & overcome me & myself & at the same time I must also help other people to overcome it. To motivate them even thou I m still a very newcomer. I am trying to motivate the other colleagues in my agency too, cos some of them are being hit by the down of the market...

That is what TEAM is for...

What Man/ Woman Wants????

What Man/ Woman Wants????

Frankly speaking, not all people knows what they wants in their LIFE... Sometimes is also depending on that person who are making the decisions too. For what I think is that: - Man - they need a woman who can give them support when they are had problems in their life, regardless work, family, friends or other matters. Man need a woman who can understand where they stands in the woman's heart. When the man needs the woman's encouragment as & when.. some one who can share his happiness & sorrows... give them suggestion & not troubles or problems... Man dont really likes woman to overcontrol their freedoms & at the same times man needs woman's care & concerns... but some man loves indenpend woman, some loves 小女人. Actually is quite contradictive, they needs woman but they dont wish to be control by them....

Woman - also another contradictive too.... What woman wants??? There are so many types of women in this world. Like the chinese says ：“女人心海针”I think woman need a man who had a stable career, care about her & family. Some woman are really very sticky types who loves to stick to their partner whenever he goes, ask a lot of questions when they need some space, where man dont really fancy it as man need certain extend of freedoms... only some portion of man loves sticky woman. As for working woman, they need certain extend of freedom when they are working too... woman need care & concern from the partner & at the same time they dont wish to be tied down by family if they are holding certain post in the company...

As long is human being, I think human being are very hard to understand.... Times flies, things changes.. only it had changed to a better one or worse....

Move Move... Move to a more positive

Had been some time since i wrote my last blog... Firstly, cause I m not sure of what I want to write on it... Since the change in me make some changes in me too. Changing career, change in my midset.... Actually, some of my friends basically they dont really encouraging me when I told them that I had changed my career.... I know their reasons behind it...

For this change, actually is a big challenge to me, not so easy to overcome the fear... Doing a new job area. From a employee to a self employed is not so easy for certain people... have to collect my own database of my prospects... When I change into this career, already know that some friends will just try to avoid me. For me, I will not force them to do any investments or any financial planning from me, cause i know if i do so, not only dont have any sales, friendship will also be another challenge for me.

No matter what, I still have to persistent in what I want... This is another chapter of my life.

CONTRADICTION

When LIFE is concern.... there are so many things to contradicting... What is LIFE? Can anyone define it? Sometimes i also cant really tells what is LIFE to me... LIFE is to enjoy? To share? or LIFE is Fragile?

Especially when a relationships are concern, regardless is just friendship, familyship or love is concern. Just came across one of my friend. He want a life of his own family but he cant find himself anymore after he had a very bad experience in previous marriage.... He dont dare to even dare to commit in any relationship even thou he loves that person so much cos he dont have any confident in himself anymore. When he had the bad marriage, he dont trust anyone...

How to have a family when the person dont even had any confident in himself....

As in Career, sometimes also contradicting too.... if a person wants a career, & never even want to step out of the comfort zone, most properably wont be able to achieve what he wants.... just like what i am doing now, if i never step out of my comfort zone, i wont be able to get what i want in my mind! Career is not a simple things... it really takes times & determinations to achieve... i m just slowly going towards it....

Here i come... i m try my best in it.

Chances are choices or just another alternative??

What are choices? Choices are chances or just another alternatives.... sometimes, the more choices we had, the more we cant decide what to choose.... when we had no other choices, maybe just only one choice, then we had to just accept it whether is good or bad. As adults, sometimes we do also regretted the choice that we made especially when we do have other choices or chances....

Choices sometimes might just lead to another chance to reborn. Since we are young, what choices do we had? Can we choose who is going to be our parents or siblings? Since young when we are just still dont know what is good & bad, we dont have a single chances to choose.... only when we are much more older, when we know how to differentiate good & bad, we are then given chances of choices to choose.... for what school to enrol, we might have some choices or might not too... only when before when we go into secondary school, maybe some children do have chances of choices... I know some parents dont even give their children a chance to choose what they want in life, the children only had to listen & follow them according without fail... Is this a good sign for the parents to choose for their kids??? Frankly speaking, if we put ourselves in the parent's shoes, we will know what actually what the parents wants the best for their kids so that their kids will had the best of the best for them to grow & nurture in the best way...

But for some children or kids, they dont like being control by their parents to do things, the more their parents likes to control them, the more they will goes against their wish. Just like how i treat my nephews, I will gives them choices when needed, but i will tell them why i ask them to choose a certain options instead of the choice that they want.... cause teenagers are not so easy to ask them just to follow what the adults wants them to do. We as a adult, must also put ourselves in their shoes cos teenagers loves to have the company of their friends when they go into a school or any activities... Sometimes we had to listen to their thoughts as friends instead of an elder person to them. Sometimes i will msn with them to communicate with them, asking them how is the study, friends or their activites they are doing now... any problem especially when they dont feels like telling their parents. We do had our secrets which their parents dont know anything about it... will tell them what is my views. share with them why i had that thinking... they will also tell me why their thinking too... Teenagers are not so easy also, they have pressure from their teachers, parents or even schoolmates especially when their results are not what they had expected... They do had their own individual's thinking.... LIFE is not a easy path for us to follow...

Chances are choices or just another alternatives????

新的旅程

踏进办公室有如新的旅程，
每天如是一个新的旅程
心里又一点的不安
可我从不放弃
我已没有后路可退了
只有往前冲，不能往后看
有谁可以让我前进不后退
我没有再多的时间了
一定要成功

Dear me

Dear me

Sometimes, or rather most of the time
you should keep quiet.
Zip up the mouth,Uhu glue them,
stitch them up, do whatever that keeps
the mouth tightly shut.

Because the more you say,
the more you're wronged.

You just need time to prove the wrongs, wrong.
and the wronged needs to buy time to prove
that the wronged has been, wronged.
You get my drift.

And you,
I have my own problems to deal with,
you're not helping me.
I don't like you.
Stay away.

Not you.
But if you think it's you,
i cannot stop your thinking.

Dear me,
you are speaking incoherently now.
Incoherent with rage and grief.
And you know all these, are words of anger.
You know you'll regret after you feel appease.
But what the heck right?
you're a lunatic.

Dear me,
you have a very patient sister,
stop taking her for granted.

Dear me,
you wish someone can back you up with things
you say and said irregardless-ly.
You wish there's someone you can trust wholeheartedly.
You used use used to have one,
but her . . . gone away dead.

You.
I miss you.
Very badly.
And i feel like crying.

Signing off
Ignatius,
Me.

Class Reunion Just Ending

Today is our class dinner is like Chinese New Year Eve Reunion Dinner.All of us gather around and chat on a dinner olso got laugh here and there.My little cute sister Zhi jun love seafoods so much that she take every dish come to the table and take picture on it.My understand sister Alice is so caring that she helping me to chose all the food including our nanny Jennifer too.We all eat happy like a big family.Alan and peggy cant be sit together cos once they sit together sure make all of us laugh till faint.Owen got work so he have to leave early.we understanding cos work is more important.After dinner,keen zhijun jennifer peggy Joline and me went back to school to learn more on barcarat.The Trainer Nick teach us the payment and the playing of barcarat.we learn a while then we left.The rest went back home sweet home.keen and me went to Owen workplace for a Drink at chinatown.we sit almost two hour and know the gal staff and a promoter.Find one day i intro the staff there for you.

Treating class for reunion dinner on friday

Our class is like a big family got a nanny who care about us.That is Jenninfer

For me i will care about the class interest like joking with them.

Zhi jun is like little sister who younger than me 12 year.She alway bully by Alan.She is cute little girl to me.

Alice is big sister to all the guy cos she is very understanding peson.We done anything wrong she will explain thing to us.

Then for Joline she is a well and fast learning gal.She got a caring and nice gal.

Keen is a half joker and half well know person and understanding person.

So that i will treat the class a good dinner this friday on 17 Oct 2008

APPRECIATION OF LOVE

When there is night,

we can appreciate day,

Sorrow so we can appreciate joy,

Evil so we can appreciate good,

And us, so we can appreciate love.

Life is short,Be Happy and enjoy every minute of it..

Having experienced and gone through many unhappy incidents in my life till now, my outlook in life have changed =



"I have made up my mind to be Happy and one way is to find pleasure in simple things"



"I must make the best of my circumstances. Life is sorrow intermingled with gladness. Thus, to be happy, i must make the laughter of the beautiful things that happened in my life and outweigh the tears of sorrow"


" Do the things I enjoy, such as writing in my diary and posting my views and what happened in my life in this blog, going out with best friends and spending more time with my loved ones, watch hongkong drama serials, listen to Mandarin Pop and Cantopop etc..."


" Do not imagine things that are not true. Trust the person that you love. Differentiate wat are imaginery and wat are real. In this case, one will have less troubles "


" Do not hate people as HATE poisons our soul. Do not be jealous of others. "


" Do not hold postmortems. Do not spend my time brooding over sorrow or mistakes that have already happened. Quote : "There is no use crying over spilt milk". Instead of brooding over the past mistakes, learn from the mistakes and try not to repeat the same mistake. "


"Keep yourself busy at something. When you are busy, you will not have time to think of imaginery unhappy things and never will be unhappy. keep myself occupied with constructive activities to stop my mind from being a "wanderer" again "

TEACHINGS OF BEING HAPPY

Why worry ??? Be Happy !!!
In order to be happy, i must have good positive and healthy thoughts, and have a positive outlook towards my life. Must be optimistic !!!
Nobody can give me happiness, only me myself can give myself happiness.
Love others and trust that the people i love will love me too.
"Give More"and "Expect Less" is one method to achieve peace and happiness within myself.
Forget the unhappy past and start living the present and future happily.
It is Man's nature to worry over things but many times, we discover that the things that we worry about are unneccesary and imaginery, causing only misery and unhappiness to us.
Thus, it is important to immerse oneself in happy and healthy thoughts and stop those unneccessary and negative thoughts from entering my life.

TAKE THINGS EASY

" Who do not have any unhappy past and sad memories,
who can expect how the outcome will be ?
Who do not have any unachieved goals,
let us just laugh off everything and let things become better
It is important to live happily and do not bear any hatred or grudges against anyone
Just live everyday happily and you will discover that the world is not so bad, your life is not as bad as you think
Let us accept happiness with open arms... "

"Explaination Of Love"

If only I can be with you
To sit in the starlight night
Looking at the milky way together
I feel that I can overcome all obstacles
Love is so beautiful and precious
Like the sun shining so brightly
Like the motivation and encouragement that you give me
BUT WHERE ARE YOU???

Hard Word To Say

Why can’t you say the word

The hurtful word goodbye

How long can I linger

How much longer will I cry

Have I played the fool

Been a fool long enough

Yes, I do know this,

Yet good-byes are really rough

A word I do not like

I would rather say g’day

Waiting, patiently, lingering

Still on my mind you prey

I know it will be hard

Good-byes are what I fear

Still open without closures

I dry up another tear

One day it will come

Maybe soon that fateful day

I still think its difficult

Good-bye's so hard to say

When you open your eyes

when you open your eyesone day you'll realizewhat you left behindsomething so hard to find and you had it in your handsand failed to understand that love like this is once in a lifetime the relationship that can defineyour happiness for the rest of your lifebut it's gone now, it's out of sightyou let me go and you're life will be emptier the one who loved you most will disappear there will be no one to hold you and mean it like I did everything I told you I meant every word of it,Every time I told you I loved you,it was straight from my heartsomething you'll be missingnow that you've torn us apart how many people would jump in front of a car for you?not how many should but how many really would? that numbers pretty low lower than you think everyone you know could leave you in a wink,but I was willing to stay through all of the hurt through every single dayyou treated me like dirt those guys don't love you more than themselves when you treat them like this they will tell you goodbye.you think there's so much more out there,but life cannot compare when you're living it alone away from the love you've known after a while of the parties and the drugs,you'll look in the mirror and hate who you've become your life is full of action, but you'll feel empty inside one day you'll cry the tears, you never let yourself cry and when you hit rock bottom and have no one, you see you'll think to yourself, 'wow I really had a girl that loved me, and I let it all go.'you'll regret it every day more than you know and the words that you’ll say are “I wish I didn’t let her go.”

Joline & Jovel birthday on 25 Sept

On 25 Sept 08 Our International Club Games Training Centre School Batch 07/08 very interest that got two same J but not the surname Gal birthday on the same birthday.All the class are doing the celebrate for them to have a very unforgetful birthday this year.

What is Life

" Life is not always exactly the best paved road..... sometimes you have had to take many detours before discovering the path to your true destination " Whoever says that life is easy is talking nonsense. Maybe life is easy when you are still a baby or a toddler or an innocent child. The older you get, the more troubles surface and the more obstacles you have to overcome, life thus become a mixture of happiness, sadness etc...In life, you also have to make your own choices, have your own ambition and dreams and to try hardest to achieve them although it will definitely be very difficult, not at all easy.Sometimes, when you feel so exhausted with all the difficulties and obstacles that have to be faced and conquered in life, maybe just let Fate and Destiny decide the results for you... and dun think too much anymore. Free yourself from the stress derived.Since life itself is so difficult to handle, then do not worry unneccessary about imaginery stuff." Life is a journey. It can be smooth and can be rough at times. It is winding and so straight at times. At different stages of life, people come and go. It is both sad and happy. This is how realistic life is "Life is just like a very bumpy road, with lots of humps to cross over..... however on the other hand, in some occassions in life, Life can be like the Expressway, and you are able to cruise leisurely, enjoying the beautiful scenery......how i wish that i can always be on the Expressway with no troubles and obstacles to overcome, everything so peaceful and great.....but be realistic, only in Fantasy stories that "people can live happily ever after"." Love is found in ourselves, we simply need to awaken it and in order to do that, we need another person to touch our hearts and let the power of love awaken. "

HURT AND WOUNDED

CAREER = In a Bad Stage
LOVELIFE = In a Bad Stage as well........................
everything is in a bad stage............i should get used to it already.......
I feel like i am in the wrong place.
I should not be here.
Everything is going wrong...
It is not as though i din put in any effort...
I put in effort in my work / career
I put in effort in my relationship with my ex Special One
In the end, I get ultimate shit ......... bloody fucker...
Guess I am just unfortunate to have met so many unhappy incidents, before and now as well........maybe even in the future........feeling pessimistic now.....after all the talk of achieving happiness, it is really easier said than done......
There is a quote stating that things cannot become worse if they have already come to their most worst. Things can only get better. Do you believe ??? I myself dunno at all..... I am in no state to think properly......
One must really be independent, and not rely on others esp. the opposite sex who are capable of hurting us to the core of the heart.
This applies to male sex having a relationship with the detested opposite sex..........you will never know when the opposite sex will leave you..........
haha..........the world is a really detestable place to be in. if you are lucky, everything goes your way, if you are unlucky, all things go wayward.......................... i think it may be a long time before all my emotional wounds can heal completely.....Out of the Blue,My Special One dun wan me........haha !!!!
i am so hurt... my heart is likened to be stabbed by a knife........after breaking off with my ex gf of 1 month, i met my special one whom i thought will give me happiness and will stand by me and support me and be my strong pillar of mental strength, but he chose to forsake me too..........
Wat can i do ? i can only look at the entire situation and laugh at how gullible i am, that i thought i met another good gal....
What i want is so simple, i will just be contented to have a wife that loves me and have 2 or more children and have a stable job.
Sad to say, it seems unachieveable......

Life is so short

Friend

October 13
Friend

Friend - What is Friend stand for??? Friends are some one who stand by you when ever you need them regardless of happiness or sorrows.

Some one told me that friends are forever... some told me that friends are just only friends, whereby they wont stand by you till u aged... Sometimes i just dont understand some people just making use of this friendship to get benefits from it...

Can we have forever friends till aged.... even now, people also tells me that friends wont stay long enough for years... for me - I do have friends for more nearly 20 years... Unbelievable also, we stay together for so long.... some friends will drif away when they get attached, married & when they have kids...

心情
忽然间，我有一点不知名的心情。。。 什莫是我渴望的？？？当你什莫多没有的时候，你渴望的是。。。 友情，亲情，爱情或是事业？尤其是当有了爱情， 会有一点不知所措。。。有时是想的与事实是不同的。爱情有如过山车，充满了刺激。。。要是有一点不小心， 会导致你心跳加速， 无法平服。要好好的享受过程。爱情可能是没有终点的，有可能只是短短的一段时间， 只要有享受它的过程，就不会对不起自己了。。。
亲情是永远的， 它会对你永远的不会对你抱怨。 友情- 要是他们是你的好朋友， 会和你分享你的点点滴滴。事业不是一生一世的。认识会老的，当你已经不能再为社会做出贡献的时候，就是因该放弃而好好的享受晚年。。。好复杂的感觉