HURT AND WOUNDED

CAREER = In a Bad Stage
LOVELIFE = In a Bad Stage as well........................
everything is in a bad stage............i should get used to it already.......
I feel like i am in the wrong place.
I should not be here.
Everything is going wrong...
It is not as though i din put in any effort...
I put in effort in my work / career
I put in effort in my relationship with my ex Special One
In the end, I get ultimate shit ......... bloody fucker...
Guess I am just unfortunate to have met so many unhappy incidents, before and now as well........maybe even in the future........feeling pessimistic now.....after all the talk of achieving happiness, it is really easier said than done......
There is a quote stating that things cannot become worse if they have already come to their most worst. Things can only get better. Do you believe ??? I myself dunno at all..... I am in no state to think properly......
One must really be independent, and not rely on others esp. the opposite sex who are capable of hurting us to the core of the heart.
This applies to male sex having a relationship with the detested opposite sex..........you will never know when the opposite sex will leave you..........
haha..........the world is a really detestable place to be in. if you are lucky, everything goes your way, if you are unlucky, all things go wayward.......................... i think it may be a long time before all my emotional wounds can heal completely.....Out of the Blue,My Special One dun wan me........haha !!!!
i am so hurt... my heart is likened to be stabbed by a knife........after breaking off with my ex gf of 1 month, i met my special one whom i thought will give me happiness and will stand by me and support me and be my strong pillar of mental strength, but he chose to forsake me too..........
Wat can i do ? i can only look at the entire situation and laugh at how gullible i am, that i thought i met another good gal....
What i want is so simple, i will just be contented to have a wife that loves me and have 2 or more children and have a stable job.
Sad to say, it seems unachieveable......