Wednesday, October 29, 2008

人生是一场游戏.

呵呵! 我听有人说过,人生是一场游戏. 但是我反对这个说法. 昨天姐姐要我选走那一条路,结果,我错选了堵车的路.. .(好倒霉) 如果人生是一场游戏,也就是说,我刚刚选错了,还能回到 原来的路,不走堵车的路吗? 人生是可以像游戏一样从新开始的.这可能吗? 每个人只有一个生命.每个生命代表每个人的人生...…

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Must be BRAVE

What is the most important of LIFE now is to get yourself up as normal or i should said that you had to be more brave & strong to overcome all this down tides of the things. When things are bad, a lot of negative people will tends to lead other people to follow them to be negative! As for me, thou I cant says that i m very brave & strong but i can says that I cant let this things to lead me to trip & falls... I must be more strong & brave so that i can reach to my goal... I want freedom to a lot things & this is not only for the short term..,, is on-going things...

As for me, I had to be brave & overcome me & myself & at the same time I must also help other people to overcome it. To motivate them even thou I m still a very newcomer. I am trying to motivate the other colleagues in my agency too, cos some of them are being hit by the down of the market...

That is what TEAM is for...

What Man/ Woman Wants????

What Man/ Woman Wants????

Frankly speaking, not all people knows what they wants in their LIFE... Sometimes is also depending on that person who are making the decisions too. For what I think is that: - Man - they need a woman who can give them support when they are had problems in their life, regardless work, family, friends or other matters. Man need a woman who can understand where they stands in the woman's heart. When the man needs the woman's encouragment as & when.. some one who can share his happiness & sorrows... give them suggestion & not troubles or problems... Man dont really likes woman to overcontrol their freedoms & at the same times man needs woman's care & concerns... but some man loves indenpend woman, some loves 小女人. Actually is quite contradictive, they needs woman but they dont wish to be control by them....

Woman - also another contradictive too.... What woman wants??? There are so many types of women in this world. Like the chinese says :“女人心海针”I think woman need a man who had a stable career, care about her & family. Some woman are really very sticky types who loves to stick to their partner whenever he goes, ask a lot of questions when they need some space, where man dont really fancy it as man need certain extend of freedoms... only some portion of man loves sticky woman. As for working woman, they need certain extend of freedom when they are working too... woman need care & concern from the partner & at the same time they dont wish to be tied down by family if they are holding certain post in the company...

As long is human being, I think human being are very hard to understand.... Times flies, things changes.. only it had changed to a better one or worse....

Move Move... Move to a more positive

Had been some time since i wrote my last blog... Firstly, cause I m not sure of what I want to write on it... Since the change in me make some changes in me too. Changing career, change in my midset.... Actually, some of my friends basically they dont really encouraging me when I told them that I had changed my career.... I know their reasons behind it...

For this change, actually is a big challenge to me, not so easy to overcome the fear... Doing a new job area. From a employee to a self employed is not so easy for certain people... have to collect my own database of my prospects... When I change into this career, already know that some friends will just try to avoid me. For me, I will not force them to do any investments or any financial planning from me, cause i know if i do so, not only dont have any sales, friendship will also be another challenge for me.

No matter what, I still have to persistent in what I want... This is another chapter of my life.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

CONTRADICTION

When LIFE is concern.... there are so many things to contradicting... What is LIFE? Can anyone define it? Sometimes i also cant really tells what is LIFE to me... LIFE is to enjoy? To share? or LIFE is Fragile?

Especially when a relationships are concern, regardless is just friendship, familyship or love is concern. Just came across one of my friend. He want a life of his own family but he cant find himself anymore after he had a very bad experience in previous marriage.... He dont dare to even dare to commit in any relationship even thou he loves that person so much cos he dont have any confident in himself anymore. When he had the bad marriage, he dont trust anyone...

How to have a family when the person dont even had any confident in himself....

As in Career, sometimes also contradicting too.... if a person wants a career, & never even want to step out of the comfort zone, most properably wont be able to achieve what he wants.... just like what i am doing now, if i never step out of my comfort zone, i wont be able to get what i want in my mind! Career is not a simple things... it really takes times & determinations to achieve... i m just slowly going towards it....

Here i come... i m try my best in it.

Chances are choices or just another alternative??

What are choices? Choices are chances or just another alternatives.... sometimes, the more choices we had, the more we cant decide what to choose.... when we had no other choices, maybe just only one choice, then we had to just accept it whether is good or bad. As adults, sometimes we do also regretted the choice that we made especially when we do have other choices or chances....

Choices sometimes might just lead to another chance to reborn. Since we are young, what choices do we had? Can we choose who is going to be our parents or siblings? Since young when we are just still dont know what is good & bad, we dont have a single chances to choose.... only when we are much more older, when we know how to differentiate good & bad, we are then given chances of choices to choose.... for what school to enrol, we might have some choices or might not too... only when before when we go into secondary school, maybe some children do have chances of choices... I know some parents dont even give their children a chance to choose what they want in life, the children only had to listen & follow them according without fail... Is this a good sign for the parents to choose for their kids??? Frankly speaking, if we put ourselves in the parent's shoes, we will know what actually what the parents wants the best for their kids so that their kids will had the best of the best for them to grow & nurture in the best way...

But for some children or kids, they dont like being control by their parents to do things, the more their parents likes to control them, the more they will goes against their wish. Just like how i treat my nephews, I will gives them choices when needed, but i will tell them why i ask them to choose a certain options instead of the choice that they want.... cause teenagers are not so easy to ask them just to follow what the adults wants them to do. We as a adult, must also put ourselves in their shoes cos teenagers loves to have the company of their friends when they go into a school or any activities... Sometimes we had to listen to their thoughts as friends instead of an elder person to them. Sometimes i will msn with them to communicate with them, asking them how is the study, friends or their activites they are doing now... any problem especially when they dont feels like telling their parents. We do had our secrets which their parents dont know anything about it... will tell them what is my views. share with them why i had that thinking... they will also tell me why their thinking too... Teenagers are not so easy also, they have pressure from their teachers, parents or even schoolmates especially when their results are not what they had expected... They do had their own individual's thinking.... LIFE is not a easy path for us to follow...

Chances are choices or just another alternatives????

新的旅程

踏进办公室有如新的旅程,
每天如是一个新的旅程
心里又一点的不安
可我从不放弃
我已没有后路可退了
只有往前冲,不能往后看
有谁可以让我前进不后退
我没有再多的时间了
一定要成功

Dear me

Dear me

Sometimes, or rather most of the time
you should keep quiet.
Zip up the mouth,Uhu glue them,
stitch them up, do whatever that keeps
the mouth tightly shut.

Because the more you say,
the more you're wronged.

You just need time to prove the wrongs, wrong.
and the wronged needs to buy time to prove
that the wronged has been, wronged.
You get my drift.

And you,
I have my own problems to deal with,
you're not helping me.
I don't like you.
Stay away.

Not you.
But if you think it's you,
i cannot stop your thinking.

Dear me,
you are speaking incoherently now.
Incoherent with rage and grief.
And you know all these, are words of anger.
You know you'll regret after you feel appease.
But what the heck right?
you're a lunatic.

Dear me,
you have a very patient sister,
stop taking her for granted.

Dear me,
you wish someone can back you up with things
you say and said irregardless-ly.
You wish there's someone you can trust wholeheartedly.
You used use used to have one,
but her . . . gone away dead.

You.
I miss you.
Very badly.
And i feel like crying.

Signing off
Ignatius,
Me.

Friday, October 17, 2008

Class Reunion Just Ending

Today is our class dinner is like Chinese New Year Eve Reunion Dinner.All of us gather around and chat on a dinner olso got laugh here and there.My little cute sister Zhi jun love seafoods so much that she take every dish come to the table and take picture on it.My understand sister Alice is so caring that she helping me to chose all the food including our nanny Jennifer too.We all eat happy like a big family.Alan and peggy cant be sit together cos once they sit together sure make all of us laugh till faint.Owen got work so he have to leave early.we understanding cos work is more important.After dinner,keen zhijun jennifer peggy Joline and me went back to school to learn more on barcarat.The Trainer Nick teach us the payment and the playing of barcarat.we learn a while then we left.The rest went back home sweet home.keen and me went to Owen workplace for a Drink at chinatown.we sit almost two hour and know the gal staff and a promoter.Find one day i intro the staff there for you.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Treating class for reunion dinner on friday


Our class is like a big family got a nanny who care about us.That is Jenninfer
For me i will care about the class interest like joking with them.
Zhi jun is like little sister who younger than me 12 year.She alway bully by Alan.She is cute little girl to me.
Alice is big sister to all the guy cos she is very understanding peson.We done anything wrong she will explain thing to us.
Then for Joline she is a well and fast learning gal.She got a caring and nice gal.
Keen is a half joker and half well know person and understanding person.
So that i will treat the class a good dinner this friday on 17 Oct 2008

APPRECIATION OF LOVE


When there is night,

we can appreciate day,

Sorrow so we can appreciate joy,

Evil so we can appreciate good,

And us, so we can appreciate love.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Life is short,Be Happy and enjoy every minute of it..

Having experienced and gone through many unhappy incidents in my life till now, my outlook in life have changed =



"I have made up my mind to be Happy and one way is to find pleasure in simple things"



"I must make the best of my circumstances. Life is sorrow intermingled with gladness. Thus, to be happy, i must make the laughter of the beautiful things that happened in my life and outweigh the tears of sorrow"


" Do the things I enjoy, such as writing in my diary and posting my views and what happened in my life in this blog, going out with best friends and spending more time with my loved ones, watch hongkong drama serials, listen to Mandarin Pop and Cantopop etc..."


" Do not imagine things that are not true. Trust the person that you love. Differentiate wat are imaginery and wat are real. In this case, one will have less troubles "


" Do not hate people as HATE poisons our soul. Do not be jealous of others. "


" Do not hold postmortems. Do not spend my time brooding over sorrow or mistakes that have already happened. Quote : "There is no use crying over spilt milk". Instead of brooding over the past mistakes, learn from the mistakes and try not to repeat the same mistake. "


"Keep yourself busy at something. When you are busy, you will not have time to think of imaginery unhappy things and never will be unhappy. keep myself occupied with constructive activities to stop my mind from being a "wanderer" again "

TEACHINGS OF BEING HAPPY

Why worry ??? Be Happy !!!
In order to be happy, i must have good positive and healthy thoughts, and have a positive outlook towards my life. Must be optimistic !!!
Nobody can give me happiness, only me myself can give myself happiness.
Love others and trust that the people i love will love me too.
"Give More"and "Expect Less" is one method to achieve peace and happiness within myself.
Forget the unhappy past and start living the present and future happily.
It is Man's nature to worry over things but many times, we discover that the things that we worry about are unneccesary and imaginery, causing only misery and unhappiness to us.
Thus, it is important to immerse oneself in happy and healthy thoughts and stop those unneccessary and negative thoughts from entering my life.

TAKE THINGS EASY

" Who do not have any unhappy past and sad memories,
who can expect how the outcome will be ?
Who do not have any unachieved goals,
let us just laugh off everything and let things become better
It is important to live happily and do not bear any hatred or grudges against anyone
Just live everyday happily and you will discover that the world is not so bad, your life is not as bad as you think
Let us accept happiness with open arms... "

"Explaination Of Love"

If only I can be with you
To sit in the starlight night
Looking at the milky way together
I feel that I can overcome all obstacles
Love is so beautiful and precious
Like the sun shining so brightly
Like the motivation and encouragement that you give me
BUT WHERE ARE YOU???

Hard Word To Say

Why can’t you say the word
The hurtful word goodbye
How long can I linger
How much longer will I cry
Have I played the fool
Been a fool long enough
Yes, I do know this,
Yet good-byes are really rough
A word I do not like
I would rather say g’day
Waiting, patiently, lingering
Still on my mind you prey
I know it will be hard
Good-byes are what I fear
Still open without closures
I dry up another tear
One day it will come
Maybe soon that fateful day
I still think its difficult
Good-bye's so hard to say

When you open your eyes

when you open your eyesone day you'll realizewhat you left behindsomething so hard to find and you had it in your handsand failed to understand that love like this is once in a lifetime the relationship that can defineyour happiness for the rest of your lifebut it's gone now, it's out of sightyou let me go and you're life will be emptier the one who loved you most will disappear there will be no one to hold you and mean it like I did everything I told you I meant every word of it,Every time I told you I loved you,it was straight from my heartsomething you'll be missingnow that you've torn us apart how many people would jump in front of a car for you?not how many should but how many really would? that numbers pretty low lower than you think everyone you know could leave you in a wink,but I was willing to stay through all of the hurt through every single dayyou treated me like dirt those guys don't love you more than themselves when you treat them like this they will tell you goodbye.you think there's so much more out there,but life cannot compare when you're living it alone away from the love you've known after a while of the parties and the drugs,you'll look in the mirror and hate who you've become your life is full of action, but you'll feel empty inside one day you'll cry the tears, you never let yourself cry and when you hit rock bottom and have no one, you see you'll think to yourself, 'wow I really had a girl that loved me, and I let it all go.'you'll regret it every day more than you know and the words that you’ll say are “I wish I didn’t let her go.”

Monday, October 13, 2008

Joline & Jovel birthday on 25 Sept






On 25 Sept 08 Our International Club Games Training Centre School Batch 07/08 very interest that got two same J but not the surname Gal birthday on the same birthday.All the class are doing the celebrate for them to have a very unforgetful birthday this year.

What is Life

" Life is not always exactly the best paved road..... sometimes you have had to take many detours before discovering the path to your true destination " Whoever says that life is easy is talking nonsense. Maybe life is easy when you are still a baby or a toddler or an innocent child. The older you get, the more troubles surface and the more obstacles you have to overcome, life thus become a mixture of happiness, sadness etc...In life, you also have to make your own choices, have your own ambition and dreams and to try hardest to achieve them although it will definitely be very difficult, not at all easy.Sometimes, when you feel so exhausted with all the difficulties and obstacles that have to be faced and conquered in life, maybe just let Fate and Destiny decide the results for you... and dun think too much anymore. Free yourself from the stress derived.Since life itself is so difficult to handle, then do not worry unneccessary about imaginery stuff." Life is a journey. It can be smooth and can be rough at times. It is winding and so straight at times. At different stages of life, people come and go. It is both sad and happy. This is how realistic life is "Life is just like a very bumpy road, with lots of humps to cross over..... however on the other hand, in some occassions in life, Life can be like the Expressway, and you are able to cruise leisurely, enjoying the beautiful scenery......how i wish that i can always be on the Expressway with no troubles and obstacles to overcome, everything so peaceful and great.....but be realistic, only in Fantasy stories that "people can live happily ever after"." Love is found in ourselves, we simply need to awaken it and in order to do that, we need another person to touch our hearts and let the power of love awaken. "


HURT AND WOUNDED

CAREER = In a Bad Stage
LOVELIFE = In a Bad Stage as well........................
everything is in a bad stage............i should get used to it already.......
I feel like i am in the wrong place.
I should not be here.
Everything is going wrong...
It is not as though i din put in any effort...
I put in effort in my work / career
I put in effort in my relationship with my ex Special One
In the end, I get ultimate shit ......... bloody fucker...
Guess I am just unfortunate to have met so many unhappy incidents, before and now as well........maybe even in the future........feeling pessimistic now.....after all the talk of achieving happiness, it is really easier said than done......
There is a quote stating that things cannot become worse if they have already come to their most worst. Things can only get better. Do you believe ??? I myself dunno at all..... I am in no state to think properly......
One must really be independent, and not rely on others esp. the opposite sex who are capable of hurting us to the core of the heart.
This applies to male sex having a relationship with the detested opposite sex..........you will never know when the opposite sex will leave you..........
haha..........the world is a really detestable place to be in. if you are lucky, everything goes your way, if you are unlucky, all things go wayward.......................... i think it may be a long time before all my emotional wounds can heal completely.....Out of the Blue,My Special One dun wan me........haha !!!!
i am so hurt... my heart is likened to be stabbed by a knife........after breaking off with my ex gf of 1 month, i met my special one whom i thought will give me happiness and will stand by me and support me and be my strong pillar of mental strength, but he chose to forsake me too..........
Wat can i do ? i can only look at the entire situation and laugh at how gullible i am, that i thought i met another good gal....
What i want is so simple, i will just be contented to have a wife that loves me and have 2 or more children and have a stable job.
Sad to say, it seems unachieveable......

Life is so short


Friend

October 13
Friend

Friend - What is Friend stand for??? Friends are some one who stand by you when ever you need them regardless of happiness or sorrows.

Some one told me that friends are forever... some told me that friends are just only friends, whereby they wont stand by you till u aged... Sometimes i just dont understand some people just making use of this friendship to get benefits from it...

Can we have forever friends till aged.... even now, people also tells me that friends wont stay long enough for years... for me - I do have friends for more nearly 20 years... Unbelievable also, we stay together for so long.... some friends will drif away when they get attached, married & when they have kids...

心情
忽然间,我有一点不知名的心情。。。 什莫是我渴望的???当你什莫多没有的时候,你渴望的是。。。 友情,亲情,爱情或是事业?尤其是当有了爱情, 会有一点不知所措。。。有时是想的与事实是不同的。爱情有如过山车,充满了刺激。。。要是有一点不小心, 会导致你心跳加速, 无法平服。要好好的享受过程。爱情可能是没有终点的,有可能只是短短的一段时间, 只要有享受它的过程,就不会对不起自己了。。。
亲情是永远的, 它会对你永远的不会对你抱怨。 友情- 要是他们是你的好朋友, 会和你分享你的点点滴滴。事业不是一生一世的。认识会老的,当你已经不能再为社会做出贡献的时候,就是因该放弃而好好的享受晚年。。。好复杂的感觉